I’ve decided to put the blog on hold for a while.

Really, it took a friend talking to me about an unrelated subject last week to make me realize that, in fact, I’ve just been sort of going through the motions for…  what, six months now, with a couple of spotty breaks in and amongst that?  That’s just not good.  I never wanted to do this sort of thing out of some sense of obligation, I wanted to post because I had stuff to say.  And coming from a guy with MY reputation as a wordy sumbitch, this has just been an unusually quiet time for me.  I’ve stopped participating in my favorite motorcycle board, I haven’t been really reading or commenting on anyone elses’ blogs, I’ve dropped off of Twitter, I’ve been slow to reply to emails (not just you guys, but hell, even at work!) – and yeah, I’ve stopped posting everything but Monday Musics.  I kept thinking if I just kept the MM momentum alive, then when I got back to myself again, it would be easier to just crank everything back up.  And that may be true, but it still leaves me going about this without the right frame of mind.  Better, I think, to just walk away and come back when the time is right.

I think, really, what it comes down to is that for the last 20 years I’ve lived my life online to a degree that is, quite frankly, kinda shocking.  First there was the old MUD, then over time I slowly began to accumulate other online homes and change my focus from one to another as the years when by:  a couple of online forums, Myspace, then this blog, and then Twitter and all that sort of thing.  (I’ve still resisted the pull of Facebook, that’s like the last online bandwagon I have yet to jump onto.  It’ll probably come eventually, but not quite yet.)  For whatever reason, lately, I just…haven’t…been…feeling it.

I’ve gotten just plain old tired of sitting in front of a computer screen, to a level that I haven’t in a long, long, long time.  I’ve been blessed with a cornucopia of wonderful online friends over the last two decades, definitely and prominently including several of you fine folks.  But I have to be honest and admit that I’ve often done so to the detriment of forging real bonds with people I can see face-to-face.  I’ve let the internet be my support network.  Which is fine, but not as one’s ONLY support group, you know?

Hell, when it comes down to it, I kinda have an internet addiction.  I’m at a point at which there are big changes underway in my life, and I’m committed to being and doing better.  So one of the things I’m trying to do is get out there, spend some time with local people, and that sort of thing.  I didn’t really intend to step away from the ‘net so much, but while this has been going on, it’s sort of felt right.

I’m not dead, I’m not dying, I’m not depressed…well, I have been depressed, but I’m actually in a phase of getting better.  Much better, I think, and I don’t think I’m fooling myself to believe so.  And it’s not y’all, it’s me.  (Heheheh, had to work in a breakup cliche here!)  Y’all know I love ya.  Pretty much all of you have my email address – and if you don’t, duh, look in the sidebar! – and hell, most of you have my phone number.  Y’all can holler if you want, whenever you want.  It’s all good.

At some point, I intend to come back – when I’ve let my pendulum swing too far on the not-so-much-with-the-online-stuff side for a while and then come back to find a nice balance.  For now, though, I’m just going to walk my walk and think about it internally, and I’ll bore you all with the details some other time.

Don’t ask me why, but this song has been on my mind for a week or so now.  It feels appropriate for the moment, though, so I’m going to throw it up here as my last Monday Music for a while.

Neil Young, “Heart of Gold”

Love and serenity to all of you.

Catch ya on the flip side.  😉



Fast Between The Ears

Okay, folks, HOLY CRAP AM I SORRY.  This has been a mildly fucked-up week and a majorly busy week – far more so than I ever would have expected.  And so I’ve not only fallen down on my writing but also my replying to comments and especially my blog reading.  Y’all don’t be mad, it’s not personal!  I’m gonna come back soon and read everything I’ve missed.  Hopefully next week, as right now, in the distance, it doesn’t look like it should be TOO crazy.  (Of course I thought that about this week, too.)

Meanwhile in the 15 minutes I was able to spend on my motorcycle board this week, I found this hilarious gem posted.  It is FAR too funny not to share.

Before you ask:  well, no, not with the Desmosedici, but if you replace that with the name of any given Japanese 1000cc+ sportbike, then yes.  Motorcyclists hear some version of this speech at least monthly, and the only saving grace of it is that the laws of physics generally prove to be an effective correction to overblown egos.  And when that happens…well, it’s easier to find cheap parts on eBay.

As one of the moto crew says:  “Riding is a constant physics lesson.  Beware the pop quizzes.”

Y’all have a good weekend, and brace for the hurricane of long-winded TB all over your blogs that has been forecast for next week…

It’s a Major Award!

Sadly, it’s not a leg lamp.  Damn.  That would look so awesome in my Man Cave with my amplifiers…

Oregon Sunshine tagged me with an award.

I don’t think I’ve ever been called “beautiful” before.  How should I react?  I’ll ponder…

In the meantime, I’m supposed to tell everybody seven things about myself.

1)  My work-study job in college was answering the phone and making photocopies… in a nuclear reactor. I have the dosimetry records on file to prove it.  Really it was a fairly cush gig as work-study jobs go.  But after the fifth time, your girlfriend joking that you glow in the dark gets a little old.

2)  Speaking of girlfriends, I lost my virginity at the tender age of 21.  Let’s move on, shall we?

3)  If I was to choose a racing number right now, it would be 95.  9 was always my favorite number as a kid, but most video games and so forth already have someone using that number, so I’ve gone with 95 – the year I graduated from college – and I’ve come to like it.

4)  A guy once told me “You’re such a contrary sumbitch that if you drowned, you’d float upstream.”  And that was my best friend.

5)  When I play RPG-ish kinds of games, there are two main character types I play:  a) the heart-of-gold barbarian, who never turns down a damsel in distress and solves most problems with a big laugh and an even bigger axe; b) the ultra-professional, utterly remorseless, “it’s just business” assassin.   Hmm.

6)  My first professional article will be published this year.  Yippee!  (“Professional” = “Outside my field, not even the biggest masochist could make it past page 2.”)

7)  I kinda sorta like motorcycles.  Shhhh.

Now I’m supposed to tag 15 NEW bloggers that I’m following.  Well hell, I’m not following much more than that overall!  Looking at my blogroll, there’s just over 20 of those, and several of those are either defunct or too “big” to be reading me in return – so the rest of you in ye blogroll, and my commenters too…if you’d like, consider yourself tagged, I’d love to see a ‘7 things about me’ from all of you!

More Guy Talk

I had a great time on last night’s radio show.  I barely had time to launch into a pointless and improvised opening monologue before my man Bad Pants (the blogger formerly known as Dead Charming) was on the line with me, and we spent a great hour talking about sci-fi/fantasy books, history, college and life paths, motorcycles, and of course stupid injuries.  And hey, we each came out of it with a few good book recommendations, so that was a hell of a bonus.

I had a guy in the chat room (with Oregon Sunshine, who was just waving nicely!) ask me a question about what to think about before one’s first motorcycle, which I attempted to answer after the show was done…I don’t know if he ever unidled to see it or not.  But that’ll make a good subject for a future post, definitely.

Miss the show?  Curious?  Hop on over to the radio show page and click the “play” button on the right-hand side and you can listen to the recorded segment!  (For that matter, you can listen to any and/or all of the past shows if you have that kind of time and that kind of sheer morbid curiosity.)

I do this thang once a month, so there’ll be more chances.  If I ever get enough demand, I might step it up to every other week again.  We’ll see!

To help with the inside jokes, here’s the infamous Red SV crashing into a tree video that assumed legendary proportions on my old motorcycle board.

Here’s the “Abridged version of Robert Jordan’s The Eye of the World” [The Wheel of Time, book 1].  I wish I could claim I wrote this thing, because it is HYSTERICAL.

Thanks again to BP for calling in; hope you all can enjoy the recorded show, and catch you next time!

Aw, faq.

Well, no thanks to YOU smartassed bastiches (well, aside from making me laugh) I done gone and edited my FAQ.  Let me know if you think I made it even worse.

And keep the smartassed questions comin’.  Dys is still trying to think up her most devastatingly clever one…

Everybody’s got an opinion.

Pregunta:  What should I add/subtract to my FAQ?

I’ve decided it’s pretty old and boring-looking and I’d like to tweak it a bit, but before I do so I thought I’d throw it out there and see if there’s anything glaring that I’m missing, anything you think should go there, or just anything you’ve been curious about.  Even if it doesn’t make the frequently asked questions, fire away and you’ll probably get an answer.

What say ye?

Radio Show Tonight!

February might be a short month, but that doesn’t mean you get to escape.


The big button above (or this link) will take you to my radio show profile page.  The show will go live at 10pm Eastern time tonight.  Click on the big-ass button above or click the link to stop by and listen in! At 10pm, a “Click to Listen” button will appear on my profile page there and you can click that to stream the show live.  Or, for the adventurous, you can call in and talk to me on the air. The call-in number is:

(646) 915-8720

That being a New York phone number (and definitively not mine), long distance charges may apply. However, there should be a “click to talk” button, which should in theory allow anyone with a microphone connected to their computer to click the button and talk to me directly over VOIP free of charge.   I can have up to 5 callers on the line at one time.  I’ve never had it cap out, but hey, that’s a good potential problem to have, huh?

In the interest of full disclosure, anyone who calls in will have their phone number pop up on my little host switchboard.  (The Click-to-Talk people pop up as calling in from 000-000-0000 if memory serves.)  I swear on my honor as a Virginian, I have never written down or otherwise saved the phone number of anyone who’s called my show, and have no intention of doing so.   I figure anybody who wants me to have their phone number knows my email address and can give it to me explicitly.  But I wanted to be completely above board with this, just on the off chance that somebody wasn’t entirely comfortable with the idea that I might see their number.  End aside.

There’s a minor change-up this time:  when 10 rolls around, the chick with the snooty British accent will say “BlogTalkRadio!” and before yours truly will be drawlin’ on the airwaves, there should be a 30-second snippet of music:  my theme song!  Woo!  Recorded just for this tidbit.  It’s supposed to feel like a motorcycle ride and smell like lemon squares, according to Dys and Beej.  You can tell me if I’m successful.

As usual, I’ll also open a chat room window for those who are interested – but I’m not sure how much attention I’ll be paying to it.  My guess is that the more folks I have on the line, the less time I’ll be watching the chat window.  But I am just winging this whole thing, after all, so whatever.

The show is scheduled for an hour.  That means that when 11:00 rolls around, the “Click to Listen” button goes away, the listening window goes dead, and nobody else can call in.  However, anybody already on the phone will still be good to go – and the show will keep recording until I hang up.  Even though nobody can listen live, it’s still being recorded for the archives. In other words, if we’re having fun, the show can run long.  In the past, we’ve generally ended up soon after the hour is over, but if things are REALLY rolling along, why stop the party bus?

There is never a set topic – on my own mind are February topics of romance, winter, when will this fucking winter ever end, snow, Valentine’s Day, and winter.  I contemplated having each caller tell a story about a romantic moment or a kiss (favorite or most amusing), but I haven’t decided whether I’ll be that cruel quiet yet.  But hey, the MotoGP testing season has started again, so let that be a threat.  Contribute to the discussion or you get an hour of me microanalyzing the days’ testing times.

It’s important to add that if there are any problems with the show, check here for updates.  If any technical snafus pop up, I’ll post up here.

Hope to hear from some of you tonight!