Growth

I’ve had leadership positions over the years…hell, starting in elementary school. But it’s been a long time since I actively sought anything like that. I think there are lots of reasons, really: mostly a cocktail of introversion and aversion to criticism, I guess. It’s seemed more in keeping with the Tao to sit back and let the world drift by me than to wade in and stem the stream.

One thing I learned from my big hell week last week (and the buildup to it) is that, at this point in my life, given the opportunity, I relished it.

I’m actually somewhat surprised, but after a lot of reflection (some quiet time today helped) I think that’s a fair statement.

It was a hard experience, and being the go-to guy (especially after my main partner’s illness) would once have been something I loathed. But it was also a rewarding experience, and being the recognizable point man ended up being something I enjoyed. Even considering my big screw-up that ticked a few people off. The goof was a decision made by three of us, but I took public responsibility for it, took the heat for it, and
even that made me feel good in a way.

On some reflection, I guess this is a hint to myself: I’m not a kid anymore, and a man’s place isn’t always just sitting back and watching the world go by. Sooner or later, a man needs to step forward and not be afraid or ashamed to be a leader.

I think that, after being still and listening to myself for a while, my inner voice is saying that now’s my time.

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One Response

  1. Taoist Biker for prez in 2012?

    2012 would actually be the first election cycle in which I’m constitutionally eligible to be elected President…

    Seriously, as a little kid I wanted to be President. All the way up until I was in high school my vague “plan” was to go to law school as an entry into politics. It was only as a junior or senior in high school that I became sufficiently disillusioned with politics as practiced to chuck that career path.

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